if only

I could have her back. She is the unattainable, out of reach. She is the daydream I cannot make a reality anymore. At this point I'd give pretty much anything, if I could have you back Cassie. I miss you, you were the one made the most difference to me at that point in my life. I was still learning and adjusting to being me, and you made it seem like none of that was a worry. I feel in love with you, i still am, I'll probably never stop, I don't know if i want too. I don't know anymore.