after dwelling long and hard, even being distracted at times from the moment because i'm just trying to figure out what THE FUCK happened. Remembering the type of person I am and that I treated you maybe better than any other, boy, had in your life. I am angered at the fact that, a girl that seems so amazing, as you, could still be in love with a little boy like that, when i was right there in front of you, next to you, underneath you when you could take a short nap on my lap. Now it just doesn't make sense to me. I assume now I should have listened to everybody and just not done anything about it. I knew this was going to happen too that's what pisses me off the most. I thought that, when I showed you what a real man would treat you like, such as I did, you'd realize that he doesn't deserve you, and I do. But now I feel undesired and unwanted, like a guy who cheats is still more desirable and worthy than I. I feel like everything I did, and more importantly felt was completely invalidated, and meaningless.
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